Always came back here for happier times.
We have grown up so much, having gone through the seasons of change. People come and go, but I like to think that they will return. In a matter of weeks, months, or years. But what matters is that, they come back.
Looking back, I kind of miss the idealistic kid. It came from the heart of someone who had yet to even catch a glimpse of what life has to offer. I don't think I'll ever be able to go back to being that happy, or carefree.
It's a pragmatic world out there. One can either choose to adjust to the circumstances, or just do as they please. The consequences can only be blamed on their choice, not the people around them.
I have stopped socializing beyond what is necessary. I don't know if it's a lack of energy or the superficial topics that are brought up all the time, that caused such a change. The things that happened this year probably made a couple of us grow up. I feel like a middle-aged woman trapped in the body of a 17-year-old with three commitments.
We have 24 hours in a day, but we use it differently. I said that countless times this year. All of us spend x number of hours on lessons each week. Assuming we spend y number of hours on meals and showers, it leaves everyone with the same amount of time to do other shit. And so, while many human beings are procrastinating, I paddle. The time you spend on socializing and icing your portfolio is used by me to do some real shit. In sum, no sleep.
I'm exhausted beyond measure. I never slept in an important class (i.e. not the H1s) throughout the first semester. Yet I am knocking out as C&C goes on about detente and market structure. I honestly love what I'm learning. Especially those by Miss I-Can-Out-Stare-A-Cat.
So far, I've broached the topic of religion to three people. They happen to be at the very top of my priority list. The responses were fascinating and I'm excited to read up.
And of course, the love of my life and the bane of my existence - the water body. It's alright for now, I hope, considering that we have a long set tomorrow. I've yet to tape up those flappers.
That concludes the first 6 and a half months of this peculiar (and shitty) year. Here is a list of songs I've been listening to, on repeat.
- Sovereign Light Cafe (most of the 2015 team would have been obsessed with this for a short while)
- Iris
- You Found Me
- Ugly Love
- Bobby Andonov songs
To all kids who aren't in tertiary education yet, take my advice and burn your notes. You will only get one chance as a child, before life screws you over, so take this time to read widely and love deeply. Build up a wealth of knowledge in the things you're interested in, not for the sake of GP, but because it's your cup of tea. Play hard. Just play.
