it's been 14 years

Many times in my life, or more of teenhood, I wish I was a kid once more. With no troubles, just enjoying life the way it should be. There's no need for true and false, because I believed in everything. No right or wrong, because it was just so simple. Innocent, young child. It doesn't stay for long. We go through so many things that during one period of time, we are forced to grow up, older than what we're supposed to be. If I had children of my own, I'll let them stay as pure as they can be, for as long as they're supposed to. Not a prince or princess, but one who cares for everything without judging. Only a child can do that. Only a child can see beauty in anyone; in anything. We have lost that essence so long ago. I wish it would come back.

It's not that I'm not happy where I am. But I know I was happier last time. Ignorant of evil, seeing good in the littlest of all things. Like a flower would be in pain if picked.

I've learnt a lot in this fourteen years. Many chapters have gone by, but it's far from the end. I don't know if this is the peak of my life, but I wish the climax will just keep on going, till the day I die. That I experience new things with each breath I take, that I learn from different people and lessons, as I go through the stages of life, happy always.

There are four main things which taught me life lessons. People, passions, dreams, myself.

It's ironic that you can teach yourself something, but every night before I fall asleep, no matter how tired I am, I pause to run the events of the day through my mind. I think about what I learnt, I think about what I did, I think about what I could have done. I think about my troubles, I think about the next day, I question myself about everything and everyone, I create scenes of what my life should be. And most importantly, I thank God for giving me another beautiful day to experience. Cherish every day no matter how good or bad it is, there's bound to be something that made you happy.

People. My family, my friends, my team. There's so much to explain, but to put it simply, the incorporated all the values I live by into myself. The main things I live by.

- Live each day with no regrets.

- Live each day being happy.

- Live each day knowing you've made a difference.

- Live each day knowing you've gave your best.

I believe that I get better each day. Not just physically, but I learn the good of the world and appreciate it. I wake up knowing what I will do. I set myself a target of what to do, and I will do it. As best as I can.

Passions. My sport. A CCA is for school, but being an athlete is for life. To sum it up, it made me learn to love the different people in the team, for who they really are. It's the people that made me love canoeing, they were the ones that made me learn to do my best in anything else I do. Reading and writing. Whatever I read influenced my beliefs, my values, my decisions, sometimes. And writing is the way I pass along messages, when it's hard to say them aloud. And finally, football. Seven years and counting, since the 2006 World Cup. Sometimes, the things you never thought you would ever bother with made a difference in you.

Dreams. Daydreams, nightdreams. I wake up feeling happy from my dreams, even if I can't remember them well. I dream of myself, I dream of people, I dream of things. They may or may not exist, may or may not happen, but I appreciate it. Dreams make me see things in a different light. Just like how I see life in another perspective.

So, fourteen years. I've been very happy through this short fourteen years. I have many chapters, and beautiful ones of course, to go. Thank you for being with me all the time, teaching me, learning with me, watching me grow up into what I am now.

Most of all, being happy with me.