(going through some editing)
I haven't properly came to terms with the fact that it's JH3 next year.
It's going to be 301, not onederland working it's magic.
Every single year, I sit down and tell myself, "This year was better than the last."
I don't think it will be like this next year.
2013 has been a beautiful chapter, the best out of fourteen.
I've gotten to know amazing people.
I saw the magic of a family.
Many a times, I was happier than I'd ever been.
I learnt to appreciate what I have.
I believe I made a difference.
I understood what it meant by doing your best for the people you love.
Found the strength to let go of things that can't be undone, and just move on, only keeping the memories.
I'll always be grateful for those friendships forged this year; I truly hope this continues in 2014. Many things are going to change, but hopefully, for the better.
I'll always be grateful for those friendships forged this year; I truly hope this continues in 2014. Many things are going to change, but hopefully, for the better.
And so, some new year resolutions:
1. Start doing my homework
2. Stay awake in class (I don't think so)
3. Try not to let my piano collect dust
4. Train hard
5. Keep my results up (cos 301 is going to be competitive and I sure as hell do not like that)
6. Not to judge my new classmates
7. Stay close to the oneders and buskers
8. Make sure 301 does not call themselves oneders
9. Get more sleep and eat more
10. Up my weights
11. Spend more time with my family (this is going to be hard)
1. Start doing my homework
2. Stay awake in class (I don't think so)
3. Try not to let my piano collect dust
4. Train hard
5. Keep my results up (cos 301 is going to be competitive and I sure as hell do not like that)
6. Not to judge my new classmates
7. Stay close to the oneders and buskers
8. Make sure 301 does not call themselves oneders
9. Get more sleep and eat more
10. Up my weights
11. Spend more time with my family (this is going to be hard)
12. Remember people's birthdays
13. HFH (but NJ doesn't allow)
14. K4 double gold!
15. Grow a bigger chest (I need papaya soya milk)
That's about it.
And hopefully when the new year begins the pain in my lats will miraculously disappear so Thursday's 2.4 will go well. (it didn't go well unfortunately, I was like barely below 12min)
Those 2013 things I'm grateful for:
- My family. Even though we kind of drifted from each other, argued more often, didn't understand each other, I just wanna say I still love all of you the most, out of all the people I know. 14 years and counting, you've been there for me. I may rant and all about you not accepting my behavior and attitude sometimes (I admit that I'm hard to manage), but if not for you, I wouldn't be where I am now. (2014 is the year to start making up for all the fights + cold wars. Please.)
- Buskers. They were the ones that brought me out from my shell. They were the ones that taught me how to accept others for who they are. They know when I'm upset, and they won't force me to speak up, but they won't let me bottle it in. They make me happy, they make me dare to dream, and there's this unspoken promise that we'll fulfill our dreams together. Which we will. We are all very different people, yet we come together as one, it's amazing. I love them to the end of the world, they are very inspiring people. They love me for who I am; I'm really blessed to have such incredible and true friends.
- Oneders. My second family. I've always talked so much about my oneders, but no amount of words can describe this amazing bunch of people. They've always made my day, and I look forward to seeing them all the time. They are quick to forgive you, they don't hesitate to show their love (it's really sweet), and they always promise to be my pillar of strength (I was so touched). I love them so much that I still cry every time I read the letters and watch the video. I honestly hope that we will stay together, that we won't drift, because they mean so much to me, I can't bear to lose this family. Two onederful years I'll always remember.
- My team. The motivation; the strength from them influenced me greatly right from the start. Many things changed along the way, I really appreciate everything they've done for me. It's pretty hard to put it down here, but these two months made so much of a difference. They say to look into the future, but the past matters as well. And even for the years to come, the girls will always be part of the best memories.
- Those times when people ask, "are you okay", it means a lot to know that they care, thank you for it.
- When I wanted to give up on paddling, the people who told me to stay strong, to stay motivated, all the letters and texts that pulled me through that period of time. "Even if you fall, we'll be there to catch you, to cry with you, and we'll make you happy."
- I learnt the true meaning of friendship. It's not #BFF4LYFE but rather, live this moment with them, be there for each other, have faith and the river will keep flowing. People leave, but better people come into your life. People you never thought you would learn to love made a difference in you.
There's a lot more, but these are the main few :)
"It's who you are I care about."
"You must learn to love yourself."
"Everyone is beautiful, you must believe that you are beautiful too."
"Just be happy."
That's 2013 folks.
13. HFH (but NJ doesn't allow)
14. K4 double gold!
15. Grow a bigger chest (I need papaya soya milk)
That's about it.
And hopefully when the new year begins the pain in my lats will miraculously disappear so Thursday's 2.4 will go well. (it didn't go well unfortunately, I was like barely below 12min)
Those 2013 things I'm grateful for:
- My family. Even though we kind of drifted from each other, argued more often, didn't understand each other, I just wanna say I still love all of you the most, out of all the people I know. 14 years and counting, you've been there for me. I may rant and all about you not accepting my behavior and attitude sometimes (I admit that I'm hard to manage), but if not for you, I wouldn't be where I am now. (2014 is the year to start making up for all the fights + cold wars. Please.)
- Buskers. They were the ones that brought me out from my shell. They were the ones that taught me how to accept others for who they are. They know when I'm upset, and they won't force me to speak up, but they won't let me bottle it in. They make me happy, they make me dare to dream, and there's this unspoken promise that we'll fulfill our dreams together. Which we will. We are all very different people, yet we come together as one, it's amazing. I love them to the end of the world, they are very inspiring people. They love me for who I am; I'm really blessed to have such incredible and true friends.
- Oneders. My second family. I've always talked so much about my oneders, but no amount of words can describe this amazing bunch of people. They've always made my day, and I look forward to seeing them all the time. They are quick to forgive you, they don't hesitate to show their love (it's really sweet), and they always promise to be my pillar of strength (I was so touched). I love them so much that I still cry every time I read the letters and watch the video. I honestly hope that we will stay together, that we won't drift, because they mean so much to me, I can't bear to lose this family. Two onederful years I'll always remember.
- My team. The motivation; the strength from them influenced me greatly right from the start. Many things changed along the way, I really appreciate everything they've done for me. It's pretty hard to put it down here, but these two months made so much of a difference. They say to look into the future, but the past matters as well. And even for the years to come, the girls will always be part of the best memories.
- Those times when people ask, "are you okay", it means a lot to know that they care, thank you for it.
- When I wanted to give up on paddling, the people who told me to stay strong, to stay motivated, all the letters and texts that pulled me through that period of time. "Even if you fall, we'll be there to catch you, to cry with you, and we'll make you happy."
- I learnt the true meaning of friendship. It's not #BFF4LYFE but rather, live this moment with them, be there for each other, have faith and the river will keep flowing. People leave, but better people come into your life. People you never thought you would learn to love made a difference in you.
There's a lot more, but these are the main few :)
"It's who you are I care about."
"You must learn to love yourself."
"Everyone is beautiful, you must believe that you are beautiful too."
"Just be happy."
That's 2013 folks.
Hello kiddo shun,
ReplyDeleteI've watched a couple of shows about time travel but it ain't gonna be happening anytime soon. Although I've read about some pretty swell inventions like flying cars & slimming patches that cost 5 bucks. BUT if I ever get to meet not-so-little me (seeing that I was 14 in 2013), I just want to say a few things.
First of all, I'm not sure if the name "shun" has stuck during this period of time or if it's still coach's name for me. Whichever the case, it's a pretty damn good name to go by. Helpful in many situations of mispronunciation (at this point, I must mention that a future junior of yours, ng seow teng, will spend many minutes of her life correcting your pronunciation of the word 'pronunciation'. You will give her your usual 'are you done' face but deep down, both of you know that you love her like your own. You have met her. She's gonna be quiet so don't be paiseh and just talk to her because boy, she can actually talk A LOT.)
I've been reading what you have written throughout 2013. Including the drafts. You are so positive and you wanna be out there to make a difference, and kiddo, don't ever lose that. You have heard this: things are gonna get harder as you grow older. It's true. But you are strong and you are brave. You are going to get through the hard parts, celebrate the wonderful moments with the people you love (there are so many, don't let go of 'em) and you will grow as an individual.
Heads up! You are going to fall in love. Twice. It's scary but it's utterly breathtaking. You will be confused but you are gonna be happy. So freaking happy. Treasure those moments. Don't be shy. But of course, always keep your mind with you. Don't hold back hugs and kisses okay? Give your heart to them but make sure that it's safe there.
A lot of crazy things have happened over the past 4 years. Things have been really hard. Take care of yourself and the people around you. Don't let them slip away. Don't let them hurt themselves. And don't you ever hurt yourself. Eat well, drink well, sleep well. Love what you study. Train hard because whatever the results, it is worth every bit of the blood, sweat and tears. Love your team with your heart. They will be with you every step of the way. Be honest. Be humble. Be kind.
And the oneders. You guys will watch each other grow up and what a wonderful thing it is. Never stop loving your first non-blood family. They will never stop loving you. Don't need many words to depict how important they are to us.
And family. Be a good daughter to mum and dad. Don't get angry at sis, she loves you so much. Be filial. Bring them out for meals, agree to go our swimming with them and explore parks together. Don't shut yourself out from your family because they are the number ones in your life. Spend time with ah ma, popo and gong gong. They are growing older. It's hard to accept that but it's important to do so. Talk to people about it. It helps. Your cousins are growing up. Remember that they struggle and help them along with it. Don't be a stranger. And you are gonna get more distant cousins! More babies to play with during cny :o)
And of course... don't be afraid to make new friends. Especially in 301. There are many wonderful people out there. With brilliant minds and the brightest of hearts. Embrace them. Give them time. Give yourself time.
And there's more. Word limit haiyo.
DeleteMost importantly, at this point in time, you are still understanding your faith. Don't fret. Even as I write this in 2018, I am still learning about it. Most importantly, know that God is good, all the time. Give your worries to Him - every single one of them - because nothing is impossible to conquer when He is with us. Don't be afraid to ask Him for help and always be grateful that God is with us everywhere we go. He is faithful even when we're not. You will grow in your faith. Embrace that and remember that you still gotta be respectful of others' beliefs, alright?
It's midnight. I'm watching a really great show. I should read more. CONTINUE READING MORE OKAY INCLUDING NON FICTION ONES! Little one, you are very much loved.