be proud of who you are, and not ashamed of how someone else sees you.

Inter-cca relays for track meet this morning.

I can imagine everyone talking about how slow we are, that even if we train so much running, paddling and weights, it never reflects during intra-college competitions.

I guess you didn't know that we had intervals before the heats. And right after the heats ended, we returned straight to training. When everyone else was gathered at the start line for finals, we were still in the midst of bridging. And with jelly legs we went to race. And once the finals ended, we joined training once again.

Everyone else was celebrating and marveling at their own positions. We didn't even practice the passing of baton, and we had to sub people in at the last moment. It was all very rushed, and we were tired from training too. We came in fourth, so no medal, but I'm really proud of our relay team. There'll always be talk about our cca, it can't be avoided. So we just try and turn a deaf ear to it.

And we're having 2.4 time trials with the basketballers next Thursday. I'm just going to give my all and break my PB by chasing every single person in front of me, and put up a really good fight with whoever tries to overtake me. It's not going to be easy for me, but I'll make sure it won't be easy for the rest of the bball girls in my cohort too.

Something happened at late morning, basically it was related to canoeing, with people talking about it right in front of my face. If it's something bad or that you're gonna badmouth it, then you're doing it quite openly. Even if I can't exactly hear, I pretty much know the gist from the panicked look in your eyes when you saw me looking at you.

But never mind. It's of no use to me anyway.

And so about water, I was actually very sian before it started. So I left school early to emo on the bus on the way to macritchie. Then I just slacked around until it was time to carry boats, then the training feeling kicked in. 

Oh Kape 27 is so nice (I borrowed it for 2 hours, you can have it back Celeste ;) ) Katie and 28 is also very nice XD 

Programme was 8X1000m, but we only managed to do six sets of 1000m and two sets of 550m. It was somewhat like fartlek, 100m 100%, 50m 20% until you finish the distance. It sounded pretty bad, but when you're on water, the feeling just disappeared. You just go there and do it, and just forget about everything else.

I had no one to pace with today, so I just kept counting the buoys and motivating myself inside. The first set was really bad, but it got better as the sets progressed. I think I've finally began kicking in a Kape, because previously, I was really worried about tilting and capsizing if I kicked on a K1 during sprint sets. My kicking goes haywire on a K2 and K4, especially when I panic, but in a K1, I magically forget to twist and kick or reach out for the catch. But today, it was so much better. (but I'm still rainbowing a lot)

So during the final 1000m set, Nick and John were shouting encouragement in the next lane. Usually, the seniors would say, "Go NJ", "Come on, come on", "Still strong", but John said something which really made me push the last 100m.

He just kept shouting, "For the JH4s, Shiyun, for the JH4s"

I swear, the feeling was really magical. I just focused on the finishing point and that one line. And the final set was my best set, I could really push the last bit so much more than the previous sets.

I wouldn't be where I am right now without the JH4 girls. And fighting hard for every single set is the least I can do for them. They are a really amazing bunch of people, I love all of them for many different reason hahaha XD but basically I wouldn't be who I am now, even, without them :)

And so that was how Shun's Thursday went.

I'm going to get something to eat now and refill bobo junior.