The Worst Feeling Ever

I know I didn't give my best for JK1 heats and semis. Yeah, I did so much better during training. But seriously, I sucked during the race. I couldn't even sprint. I just couldn't find the energy to put in the effort during the strokes. Technically, I was paddling. Not sprinting. It sucked. Seriously.

After watching my own video, I felt that I've let down everyone. It was simply terrible. Why?! Why did I not sprint? What the hell was going on during my solo race?

As I looked at the video once more, I feel even more ashamed of myself. Guys, sorry for letting all of you down. I promise to give my all for the other competitions, for training, for whatever I do in life. Not like how I did in NJCC. I'm really, really sorry.

This is seriously the. Worst. Feeling. Ever.

I'm sorry. I'm ashamed.