Stuck.

Honestly, I can't think of how to get the HFH project going.

Firstly, I'm caught up with studies and training and all my other commitments that I miss VIA opportunities ALL THE DAMN TIME. Four times a week in the morning, three times for water, plus my theory, piano, german, and yoga (which just ended, but I enjoyed it tremendously).

I know all my friends are willing to help and support me, but since I created the idea, I should be responsible of taking charge, yet I'm clueless. Doing some things to fulfil my dream would definitely clear my mind, but how do I stop all these things? I can't even go for the class lunch on Friday because I have to go for water, and since it's CAFE, all the more I need to recruit people or my 2015 B Div is screwed.

It's like I'm planning my life, something which I vowed never to do. I tell myself that it's okay to get stuck in the wrong train somewhere, so long I'm happy. But right now, I want to slow down, but I can't afford to, because once I do so, something bad's bound to happen. I need an anchor.

Boarding would do me a lot of good. More sleep, more rest, more energy, and easier to recruit people. I love my sport, I love the people, but there aren't any more mornings when I get to see the oneders. There aren't any more afternoons where I can stay back and lepak in the classrooms because I just rush off to my own stuff without more than a word. Even during break times, I'm down completing the weights programme and fulfilling my pull-up quota. We need to breathe sometime too. And back to my point about VIA.

The SPCA thingy is too late now, I suppose. And Tammy's VIA opportunity just didn't catch my eye... It isn't the kind of thing that I would do. My cup of tea would be true interaction with people, talking about their lives, not about science.

This isn't a plea for help. This is just what I'm feeling now, and maybe tomorrow will be a better day, who knows?

I'm still on for my own hair shaving project, but please tell me where to begin and how. We're all so caught up in our lives that we tend to forget that there are still people out there who needs to be loved a little more.