If you chose to turn back time, to change your past, wouldn't it mean that you don't trust your own instinct? You walked that path for a reason, whatever you were going through at that point of time, you trusted that it was the best choice you could make.
Happiness; it comes from the simplest of things. And if you had reverted one decision, just one, it could have changed your life. You wouldn't have met your best friend, you wouldn't have all those happy memories. But you chose to change it because of one argument. You chose to give up on that friendship.
Maybe, in the past, you chose to do something. And you eventually gave up on it, despite putting all your best efforts in it, just for that period of time. Then you returned to the past, and decided never to take it up in the first place. And it never crossed your mind that when all those didn't happen, it was replaced with hours of free time which was useless, all those lessons you could have learnt never existed, and you would be just an ordinary person, wasting your life away. Even if you felt it wasn't your cup of tea, everything you do comes with experience, some pain, the slight twinge of regret, but there's always something you learnt, that made you who you are.
You say that all it brought you was pain, or sorrow. But that pain made you stronger, made you resilient. It could have taught you to embrace the ones you love. Even if you were cheated, you know that you are true to others, and that's what that matters; that's remembered of you, eventually.
You were given this life because you were strong enough to live it. And when you live it, it's not just for yourself. It's for the people around you. Because without them, you wouldn't have all those memories you cherish so much; that you hold dear to your heart.
And when you chose another life, they had to choose one without you. Maybe you don't see it, because you are too caught up with wallowing in self-pity, but there are people out there who love you, who watch out for you, only in silence. They were your pillar of strength, but you never noticed them. They drifted in and out, with a hug and a comforting word or two, and you never looked twice at them. But they stayed with you all along. And you want to throw them away because of your own selfish desires for your so-called happiness when happiness doesn't depend on what you choose, but it's the people who loved you all along, never minding that you treated them just like the whisper of a passing wind. And maybe you made them happy. And when you're gone finding your happiness, you just threw them away, like the litter along the streets beneath your feet.
If you're searching for happiness, look for yourself first. You are lost in your own world, which isn't as sad as you think it is.
There are many things I honestly wished never happened. But if it would just become one big mess if I'd chose to change everything.
Because when something is meant to be, it will be.
You say that all it brought you was pain, or sorrow. But that pain made you stronger, made you resilient. It could have taught you to embrace the ones you love. Even if you were cheated, you know that you are true to others, and that's what that matters; that's remembered of you, eventually.
You were given this life because you were strong enough to live it. And when you live it, it's not just for yourself. It's for the people around you. Because without them, you wouldn't have all those memories you cherish so much; that you hold dear to your heart.
And when you chose another life, they had to choose one without you. Maybe you don't see it, because you are too caught up with wallowing in self-pity, but there are people out there who love you, who watch out for you, only in silence. They were your pillar of strength, but you never noticed them. They drifted in and out, with a hug and a comforting word or two, and you never looked twice at them. But they stayed with you all along. And you want to throw them away because of your own selfish desires for your so-called happiness when happiness doesn't depend on what you choose, but it's the people who loved you all along, never minding that you treated them just like the whisper of a passing wind. And maybe you made them happy. And when you're gone finding your happiness, you just threw them away, like the litter along the streets beneath your feet.
If you're searching for happiness, look for yourself first. You are lost in your own world, which isn't as sad as you think it is.
There are many things I honestly wished never happened. But if it would just become one big mess if I'd chose to change everything.
Because when something is meant to be, it will be.
If I had chose to stay in RV, I would never meet the oneders, meet those special friends like Jiawen and Rebecca, be part of the big canoeing family.
They are all amazing people, very precious to me, I'll never want to lose any of them, because they mean so much to me now; I can't imagine living without all of them. They are all part of my happiness, it's more than what I can ask for, I'm really blessed to have all of them in my life.
So to end off.
So to end off.
I'm happy with what I have now.
I may want more once in a while, but I don't need it.
Because I've always had what I needed.
You are part of my happiness.
And I hope I've been part of yours.
When I promise that I'll have your back, I would never turn back on it.
Even if I don't show it, I do care.
Just in another way.
我喜欢现在的生活。
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